Blaugust D31: The End; Vote of Thanks

I did it! 31 continuous days of blogging. Not sure what my all-time longest streak is but this is up there for sure. It's particularly significant because I had all but given up writing itself and was stuck in an extremely difficult living situation to boot. Actually, doing this helped me greatly this past month. …

Blaugust D30: Landlords are leeches redux

So after starting to feel somewhat hopeful again last night, life decided to knock me down a few once again this morning. Woke up feeling really tired and achey, but that was all soon forgotten when I received yet another nasty message from my asshole of a landlord. The jerkhole is threatening to not pay …

Blaugust D29: Shaking off the sadness and finding hope

Before that sudden wave of darkness yesterday, I had actually been feeling mildly optimistic about the future. I've finally found a new house that, while far from perfect, should still be a significant step forward from the current hellhole. And I have actually made a new friend irl for the first time in years and …

Blaugust D28: Struggles with death

Trigger Warning: Suicide, Death A little while ago I tweeted that more than sadness I've started feeling a sense of envy each time I hear of a premature death. This feeling came into prominence almost exactly a year ago with the passing of a childhood friend. She was someone with a lot of parallels to …

Blaugust D27: Random whining, nice photos

Feeling a bit deflated today. I wrote yesterday's post with a lot of feeling and really hoped more people would read it. Shared on twitter and even pinned the post but not a single person clicked through as far as I can tell. And if my wordpress stats are to be believed, yesterday's was one …

Blaugust D26: On doing the right thing

So I went on this shore walk organised by a conservationists group this morning (it was lovely) and at the end, one of the walk leaders asked us why we should protect our beaches. The answers ranged from preventing erosion of land to protecting our ground water supply to forestalling climate change so we don't …

Blaugust D25: A showcase for playback singing

Today I want to write about a really fun song. Came up in a random playlist and I heard it after ages whilst cooking. Couldn't help immediately getting caught up in it. It's the song Mudhal Mudhalaga Kadhal Duet from the film Niram Maratha Pookkal (1979). I haven't watched the movie or even watched the …

Blaugust D24: A day for pushing through

After that practically missing day, today was the day to push through the pain and get things done. Got things done at work, got things done at home. The reaction will come eventually but for now I'm still pumped on adrenaline. Woke up feeling rather meh and even considered taking the day off. As if …

Blaugust D23: Sick, sad, sleepy day

Title says it all, really. Being sick & sad and sleeping is basically all I did all day. Woke up sleepy, kept dozing through the day, and I'm still sleepy. Guess my body just decided enough was enough and I simply had to catch up on rest. It basically went on strike today. Only managed …

Blaugust D22: Portrait of a jealous heart

Why not me? This is the form my jealousy always takes. Not why doesn't this happen to me. But why won't they talk to me, give me attention when they do so with others. It's very silly and I realise it but can't help feeling it all the same. Have felt this in varying degrees …