Thoughts after an evening out

Went out and met some old friends and some new this evening. It was a nice break from the usual and from everyday loneliness. I can't do this sort of this very often -- need my alone times to recharge plus these type of drink and dine outings get expensive. Luckily, I've had plenty of …

Blaugust D27: Random whining, nice photos

Feeling a bit deflated today. I wrote yesterday's post with a lot of feeling and really hoped more people would read it. Shared on twitter and even pinned the post but not a single person clicked through as far as I can tell. And if my wordpress stats are to be believed, yesterday's was one …

Blaugust D24: A day for pushing through

After that practically missing day, today was the day to push through the pain and get things done. Got things done at work, got things done at home. The reaction will come eventually but for now I'm still pumped on adrenaline. Woke up feeling rather meh and even considered taking the day off. As if …

Blaugust D22: Portrait of a jealous heart

Why not me? This is the form my jealousy always takes. Not why doesn't this happen to me. But why won't they talk to me, give me attention when they do so with others. It's very silly and I realise it but can't help feeling it all the same. Have felt this in varying degrees …

Blaugust D14: Landlords are leeches

After a nice stretch of talking about things I love, we move today to something/one we can all hate on: landlords. Was there ever a more despicable lot? They are no better than leeches. Somehow end up with a place of shelter and make money simply by virtue of owning it. Won't provide even the …

Blaugust D8: Back to regularly scheduled sadness after a brief break

Writing my blog post early today because I'm hoping to go to bed soon and catch up on some desperately needed sleep. Yesterday turned into a quite the nightmare after I finished updating blog. I'd mentioned the power was out and I wrote that post from the terrace. I stayed up there until a bit …

Blaugust D5: A rant and a request

Another awful day and I couldn't even go to the beach to cool off. I was on my way over when my favourite pair of pants tore when I got down from my bike at a stop. 😦 And now I have a throbbing headache. This is going to be a short one therefore. Not …

A shameful jealousy

My little niece is coming over for a visit in a while and instead of being an excited aunt, I'm dreading the visit. There are a few different reasons for this. No, it's not because she'll be taught to call me அத்தை though that does have a weird sound to it. It's more that I'm …

Another wail

I seem to only come here when I'm sad. And that is sad. My writing (not here... well, maybe here too) has become so boring. Or maybe it's writing itself that I've grown bored of? Nah, I still want to express. But I can't find the words. Or the will. For anything really. Need to …

A Belated Rant

I wrote this a little while ago (while I was on a plane iirc) and never got around to publishing it. ----- I've never been able to act my age. As a child I was too grown-up, too serious. My mom's main impression of me as a child is how I hardly ever laughed. I …